TheRollerCoasterOfLife

RT someone said: U knw. If someone do smething. E least u can do is replacing e worth on a diff activities. Bt then again, only great minds think alike


then you find a fucking great mind bitch!!!

this is over...

even before you leave to a different country code.. you've managed to lose Me


good bye

Ignorance is my new best friend

its that time again.. only this time, its not my love life that's in the crosshair..

yes.. its my job.. again

how do you really know.. you'll have it good.. I mean how much can you really trust the words of your boss

seriously..

urgh..

Been on a long road. reinventing myself.

the trip to square one was so very worth it.

I couldn't be happier.. thank-you so much love.. for taking this little trip back in time with me..

I really hope this journey is slightly better or much more better in fact..

but what I am content for right now.. I'm glad we have tt reset button to help work things out..

this post may not make any sense at all. let alone be of any proper English syllabus standards.. not tt mine is great to begin with..

thus, this is to fulfil my hearts content..

.ily.

why.

is it that cuz I'm in a relationship

is it cuz I'm feeling the need to be responsible

daddy.. why would you always feed me with your.. the mature thing to do is.. advises

you made me soft.. aaaaaarrggggghhhhh

I like the fact I had no emotion at work.. I like how being cold steel got me paid well.. now

my strength is now weakness. I sold myself short

aaqrrggghhhh!@!@

oh well,

the wheel of fate has spun and the thread of destiny has been laid out

that's what they say ain't it.. sorry..
I don't buy that crap still.. but its strange how my given or received thoughts and advises leads to that direction.. manipulatively contradicting

ROGER THAT

talk about too much too swallow at one single digestion.. indecisive decisions.. yes yes... those acidic questions and the power of suggestion

wait

am I making sense... did I even spell sense correctly.. hey its not like any media will read this and judge this post.. but oh well

you'd understand this is very draggy by now

epileptic

I guess so

ok fine, so its like here is what I honestly don't get.. does a proper truly based relationship comes with common grounds

cuz if it is, I'm on a battlefield

what am I suppose to accept .. seriously

schizophrenia moments

I've had a plenty moments lately

don't even get me started About how my state of mind just turn down a very decent paying job.. what was I thinking.. offers like that don't come by just like that.. there goes my possibilities of earning what I've been dreaming.. for now at least... aarrfghhhhg!!!!

emotional relations seriously does shit to me, bleargh!!!!

ok fine, to whom it may concern...
what do you want in life.. yes you.. you have one too many imaginative mind boggling life reshuffles.. you gotta choose one MRBAR.. if not.. you can never move on to the next one.. life has countless decisions.. yet I face them all at one go sometimes.. that feeling.. honestly .. suck balls.. fine fine.. I'm of topic.. goodbye 2K per month job.. see that's what you get for being at an emotional distress

ok back to my relationship.. that's what the title says to begin with.. yes.. considerations

what do I want.. after that chapter.. things will never ever be the same..

in fact I believe your little train has jump off its tracks

ok.. less we say.. I butt fuck this game up.. yes yes.. you can drop the world on me.. less we say.. I already did pick it and drop it on you

its ok.. I can die now.. rebirth.. that's what I'm feeling

ok so like.. state of us ... this cold strain seems to do good ayyee.. I'm on a yo yo on this.. I hate it but it feels good

hmmm.. let's say we say about that day.. we really did push the bar for both our patience and limitations.. I guess thinking of a fairly mature adult thoughts.. I guess, we discover this now is better then when we have tied the knot

I mean at least that's my take on it

but too bad, as much as i thought things are that way.. well mentally I guess maybe we are.. I mean I am.. I don't know bout you tho..

here is the considerations.. do you want to accept this maturity or just follow that little crazy thoughts

face it. emotionally. we both don't live to each others expectations

I believe no elaboration is needed here

physical attraction, emotional attraction.. needs wants desire.. love vs lust.. the comfort of being in a state of contempt.. affection vs infatuation..

you fill the blanks

my minds clear now

so I guess..

repel & keep the distant

that seems to be the best option

I shall hope and not look forward for anything

this road is still to rocky and bumpy

yo-yo

no way I'm letting up this time

I'm caught up on yours

stfu

how bout you make it feel worth it

I lack the trust

roger that

well, news flash

you lack everything else

you say its just words posted

that decisive and defenciveness over just words

I beg to differ

pitying one self only portrays the belief one has in his or her words

no pun intended

yes, I leave and live with no regrets

been on the losing end of this thread to begin with

won't be exactly losing paradise

you've not made it one

on that note

yes, less emotion closure

definitely affection and intimacy

roger that

so like as always I wake up uber late.. its a Monday.. never been a Monday person

so like, woke up

watch an hour of Korean drama

ate

decided that I'm damn late for work.

showered

looked at clock

1030

2hrs late.. interesting.. I'm so gonna reach at 1200.. that makes it 4hrs late

my pay can actually get cut for this.. well by right at least

that has never happened tho. hope it will stay that way.

got out of the shower. got dressed

while getting dress. a sudden pain just hit my lower back

excruciating